Thursday, May 31, 2007

pray. always. pray.

The Way Things Work

is by admitting
or opening away.
This is the simplest form
of current: Blue
moving through blue;
blue through purple;
the objects of desire
opening upon themselves
without us; the objects of faith.
The way things work
is by solution,
resistance lessened or
increased and taken
advantage of.
The way things work
is that we finally believe
they are there,
common and able
o illustrate themselves.
Wheel, kinetic flow,
rising and falling water,
ingots, levers and keys,
I believe in you,
cylinder lock, pully,
lifting tackle and
crane lift your small head--
I believe in you--
your head is the horizon to
my hand. I believe
forever in the hooks.
The way things work
is that eventually
something catches.

- Jorie Graham

Thursday, May 24, 2007

twitter mode entry... turns out not quite so

currently taking up spanish lessons.

ah, the joys of discovering something new! the experience of learning the language has been amazing so far. sweet treats from mi profesora abound in the table. who wouldn't be motivated to learn, then? besides, sweets are my ultimate kryptonite.

learned my first sentence in spanish through rote memorization with a little dash of comprenderiendo-- Lenguaje es la forma o manera peculiar de hablar de un pueblo o nacion.*wink*

mi profesora is amazing and adorably sweet.
she's a treasure! she's a gem! i hope one day i can be as good a teacher as her. i will upload a photo of her in an update.

for now, i can share the dulces she gave. yum!




UPDATE:

mi profesora conmigo

in one of my spanish sessions, i brought los dos angeles with me. it's a good venue for them to apply and practice what they have learned from dora the explorer.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

state of mind

no preocupe

Thursday, May 17, 2007

for some unknown reasons


i miss my long hair.
it will grow back.

i miss him.
he will come back.
he never left.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

sino ako?

1. naniniwala ako na ang numerong 11 at 13 ay masuwerte.

2. mahilig akong mag muni-muni lalo na at pag nakasakay sa jeep sabayan pa ng makapigil-hiningang trapik sa mahabang lansangang ang dulo ay ang aming tahanan.

3. high ako sa musika. lalo na iyong di pangkaraniwan.

4. hindi ako marunong kumanta pero minsan pakiramdam ko ka-boses ko si sitti.

5. pag may nagustuhan akong kanta, di ko titigilan ito hangga't di ko pagsawaan. pagkatapos nito, isang taon muli ang hihintayin bago ko ito patutog-tugin sa aking random playlist.

6. sa ngayon binabalangkas ko at pinag-aaksayahan ng oras ang pag tingin sa mga foodie sites gaya ng
desserts come first. ewan ba ang subconscious ko ata ay gustong maging chef ako.

7. nagyo-yoga ulet ako. medyo may variation ng konti ngayon, yogilates na. baka sa next post ko ibabalita ko na marunong na akong mag handstand. noong huli akong mag-yoga, merong isang "big surprise" na nangyari sa akin na hinding-hindi ko ibabaon sa limot.

8. interesado ako sa meditation. third year high-school ata ako ng nasambit ko na ang tungkol dito, pero hindi ako "mindful" noon. ang tawag ko pa nga noon dito ay "self-reflection". ewan ba, ermitanya ata ako sa aking nakaraan. gusto ko lang sigurong makilala ng lubos ang sarili ko.

9. ang blog na ito ay tina-type ko sa saliw ng "crush" ng dave matthews band. iyon ang aking # 5 sa ngayon.

10. masyadong magaling ang aking anak. kung baga, she knows how to ask the right questions. tinanong nya ako kahapon kung kailan daw ginanap ang kauna-unahang eleksyon sa pilipinas. na-tameme ang mommy, next question please. sayang at walang google sa bahay noong mga oras na iyon =).

11. kakatapos ko lang basahin ang tungkol sa buddhism na akda ni thich nhat hanh. natuwa ako sapagkat nabili ko ang libro sa murang halaga. napakayaman ng mga kinatha at sinulat niya tungkol sa kristyanismo at budhismo ngunit gusto ko pa ring kumain ng pizza melt sa jollibee.

12. 28 years old ako ng matuto ako kung paano huminga. yogi ang nagturo sa akin.

13. di ko tinigilan ang internet hangga't di ko nakita at na download ang short story na likha ni alice munro ang "the bear came over the mountain."

14. nakalimutan ko na ang kaibahan ng gamit ng "ng" at "nang".

15. noong bata ako, pag maysakit ako -- ang tatay ko ang nasa tabi ko tangay-tangay ang 8 .0z na royal. peyborit ko ito maski ngayon.

16. nami-miss ko ang tandang sora.

17. nami-miss ko ang philcoa, ang UP diliman, ang sanggumay dorm, ang los banos, ang visayas avenue...

18. matakaw ako. matakaw sa tulog.

19. gusto ko ng magsulat sa blackboard at makipag-talastasan sa apat na sulok ng classroom...

malapit na...

Thursday, May 03, 2007

y.o.u.

i saw you in your uniform. the color blue flashed right before my eyes. you were smiling. dashing. more than handsome. you made me feel giddy all over. i floated without you knowing. it has been more than a year ago when you asked, "are you happy?". i scrambled for the words to say to you. nobody asked me that question before. oh, how special you made me feel!

i breathe you in, i breathe you out like air. always essential, you are. when i wake-up in my dreams, it's your face i see. it's so close to mine that i am almost touching you, letting my fingertips outline your beautiful eyes.

i see you, i see you not. i feel you, i feel you not.
i see you. i feel you. wherever i may be, there you are.