peace

if there is peace,
there is love,

if there is love,
there is no fear,

if there is no fear,
there is trust,
faith,
hope,
surrender,
and the patience to see the season change...

day 2 - take a walk with me

i woke up to a beautiful california morning. i had tuyo, sinangag, talong. spanish bread and coffee for breakfast. all the filipino goodies i haven't devoured for a long time. i am sure to gain weight in no time :)

i explored my uncle's neighborhood. the view is breath-taking... it feels foreign. everything seems so different from what i'm used to in florida. but who knows someday...i might call this place home...

spanish bread and coffee

tuyo, talong and sinangag

day 1 - a journey back to me

this has been a wonderful and magnificent year. albeit, unexpected things occurred. most of it, turned out to be a blessing and of great significance in my growth as a person, a woman, a mom, a friend, a worker...a partner. there were days when things seem to drown me in complete stupor that i just wanted to wither and give up the dream, the vision, the ideals i nurture within me. but, the will to see my dreams to reality is so much stronger. the desire to be more than my weaknesses, my frailties, my failings compelled me to stand up and move forward. and, i will always remain steadfast in my faith that everything is taken cared of. all i need to do is let the MAIN MAN have a hand in everything i do, everything i conceive, everything i desire...and in HIS perfect time everything will be born to reality.

this has been a marvelous year. no, i was not insulated from pain, from layoffs, from a speeding ticket, from stress, from suffering...still, i am grateful for all of those things and i will not have it any other way. lessons were unearthed. lessons were re-learned. lessons helped me adjust my sails and heed a new direction. lessons made me realize that some of the things i needed were not an end itself but a beginning of yet another journey....and it takes preparation...and i need to be molded so that i will show up one day ready to assume a new role...hence, i will take this time to devote my time to myself, my family, my friends and my community...thereafter, give more of myself...share more of myself...be of service.... radiate goodness and love.

this has been a love-filled year and i look forward to a new one to come into fruition filled with blessings, joys, triumphs, and glorious celebration of life.

insights

• change is always for the better...always


• everything is divinely coming together. trust. patience. joy. love. you are beholden. keep going


• change is an elixir for new things to come into your life. resist not. persist not. embrace and receive it openly


• anticipate and desire the best things in life and it will come


• be mindful. be aware. be discerning. listen. attune yourself


• trust in the process of life


• situations are neither good nor bad...they are just...well...situations


• pray

salamat

for all the good and the bad,
for joy and despair,
for healing and pain,
for beginnings and endings and beginnings,
for peace and tribulations,
for calm and madness,
for solitude and togetherness,
for prayers answered and dreams being conceived...
for abundance and poverty,
for life's mystery and brilliant surprises,
for oneness,
for love and love,
for love...

thank you.

steady ka lang...

you have to be broken, to become whole again...
there are no right or wrong choices... life has a way of correcting itself...
overcome yourself, win the battle within you...
relinquish control, lose it, to gain it...

at times,
life needs to pause,
life needs to be in neutral motion,
so that greater awareness will resurface...

answers to questions aren't forced,
it will arise when you do not resist,

life is real, open your eyes...
to both its beauty and lackluster...

lose it, to gain it...

simula

a chapter ends....
and a new one....
begins...
fresh...
bold...
light...
joy...
celebrate...
it is not the end of the world...
look into your heart...
search for answers...
it is within you...
you do not need to look further...

brave..
toughen up...
head up...
steady...
stand still...
be still...
silence...
relish it...
for when happiness comes...
it will have a greater magnitude than the pain your nourishing...

look...look...up
take a flight...
travel alone...
discover..NY...
discover yourself...
learn...
stand up...
stand up...
what was lost...
was actually gained...

fear not....
fear not...
fear not yourself...
fear not love...
begin anew...

dasal

i pray to thee..not for easy, lackadaisical days...not for a facile toil...a facile victory...
i pray to thee that i may share and gave all that is within me...all that i can ever be...

i pray to thee...please be my guide, be my light...as i begin yet another journey...

i may doubt and be overtaken by fear,
anxiety oveflows like that of a coffee froth,
a deluge of thoughts falls from the skies like an avalanche,

but i will remain steadfast, strong and faithful to your word,

i pray to thee,
please be always at my side,

strengthen my spirit,
strengthen my mind,
my body,
that i may inspire...
and ignite a sparkle in other people's lives...

choose

i choose my thoughts...
i choose how i feel...
i choose what i feel...
i choose to look everything in perspective...in all angles...in all corners...in all edges...

i choose to look away from mistrust,
insecurities,
obscureness,
i choose to fight my demons,
battle them with faith, love, humility, kindness, compassion, benevolence and hope,

i choose to fight my doubts,

i choose to trust myself.

a year and one more

dreams coming into fruition,
prayers in flight,
prayers fluttering in the skies,
hovering ,
listless,
far and away,
alas alight on
the palm of my hand,

trouble,
trouble,
pain,
downtrodden,
esteem me into being,
raise me to the heavens,
lift,
lift,
lift me up,

keep your head up,
you fighter you,
stop,
don’t stop,
keep on,
walk toward your purpose…
realize,
materialize…


writing to celebrate my second year of stay here in the U.S.